Do I love you enough?

My heart is pumping fast enough to make me realize that your presence is somewhat noticed in my heart.
Then, my heart silently response to it
My heart can't really tell whether I want to be with you or not. There are two things. One. Yes I want to be with you, you are never absent in my mind. Yet, I need an exact reason to be with you. A reason where you also require my presence. I don't think that I have what you need. I don't want to be selfish.
and I think... I'll be selfish if I force myself to be with you.

this is absurd
this leads me to ask... do I love you enough?
or... I just need you to prove that I am worth-ed to be loved too...